Hello my name i…
15 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
Hello my name is hashimotos
Posted by sh3llD
13 hours ago
12 comments
Hi….My Name is Hashimoto’s, and I’m an Invisible Chronic Illness.
I am now velcroed to you for life. Others around you can’t see me or hear me,
But YOUR body feels me. I can attack you anywhere and anyhow I please.
I can cause severe pain or, if I’m in a good mood, I can just cause you to ache all over.
Remember when you and Energy ran around together and had fun?
I took Energy from you, and gave you Exhaustion. Try to have fun now! I also took Good Sleep from you and, in its place, gave you Brain Fog. I can make you tremble internally or make you feel cold or hot when everyone else
feels normal. Oh, yeah, I can make you feel anxious or depressed, too. If you
have something planned, or are looking forward to a great day, I can take
that away, too. You didn’t ask for me. I chose you for various reasons:
That virus you had that you never recovered from, or that car accident,
or maybe it was the years of abuse and trauma. Well, anyway, I’m here to stay!
I hear you’re going to see a doctor who can get rid of me. I’m rolling
on the floor, laughing. Just try. You will have to go to many, many doctors
until you find one who can help you effectively. You will be put on pain pills,
sleeping pills, energy pills, told you are suffering from anxiety or depression,
given a TENs unit, get massaged, told if you just sleep and exercise properly I
will go away, told to think positively, poked, prodded, and MOST OF ALL, not
taken as seriously as you feel when you cry to the doctor how debilitating life
is every day.
Your family, friends and co-workers will all listen to you until they
just get tired of hearing about how I make you feel, and that I’m a debilitating
disease. Some of them will say things like “Oh, you are just having a bad day” or “Well, remember, you can’t do the things you use to do 20 YEARS ago”, not
hearing that you said 20 DAYS ago. Some will just start talking behind your
back, while you slowly feel that you are losing your dignity trying to make them understand, especially when you are in the middle of a conversation with a “Normal” person, and can’t remember what you were going to say next!
In closing, (I was hoping that I kept this part a secret), but I guess you already
found out…the ONLY place you will get any support and understanding in dealing with me is with Other People With Hashimoto’s
Hearts of Space featuring ‘The Ice Castle’.
14 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
Today I received two emails. One from Hearts of Space radio and one from John at Magnatune saying that my album The Ice Castle is being featured this week on their ‘National’ radio show in the US. How exciting 
. What is even more exciting is that it’s one of my own self written and produced albums so it’s heart warming to get some support on that.
Thanks Hearts of Space
love Kirsty
Back In Time ‘Liquid Kaos’. DJ Fresh, Adam F, Stamina MC and Kirsty Hawkshaw
11 Dec 2011 1 Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: DJ Fresh, drumandbasics, kirsty hawkshaw, Lii, Liquid Kaos, lyrics to back in time, stamina mc, toolroom
I’m hearing voices in the wind
I can hear them coming closer
back in the cold December rain
do you remember
we don’t look back in time
i’m moving on your moving on
we don’t look back in time
i’m moving on your moving on
My life is burning up with colour
I see rainbows in the distance
but it’s always close behind me
and it’s coming round again
I hear you turn the light on
while we’re drowning in excitement
everybody’s up and singin’
and i’m feeling you again
we don’t look back in time
i’m moving on your moving on
we don’t look back in time
i’m moving on your moving on
won’t be looking back
and i’ll be facing to the future
and I know that you’ll be thinking of that
cold December rain
you know we belonged together
feeling like we used to
but I know that i’ll be thinking of that
cold December rain
repeat chorus.
words by Kirsty Hawkshaw, Adam F, DJ Fresh
backing vocals by Stamina MC
Liquid Kaos Feat Kirsty Hawkshaw
‘Back In Time’
RELEASED: 22.01.12
Toolroom Records breaks new ground once again courtesy of the legendary drum and bass double act Liquid Kaos who have teamed up with vocalist Kirsty Hawkshaw for ‘Back In Time’, a drum and bass master class that will be taking over the airwaves and the clubs.
Liquid Kaos need little introduction as owners of the legendary Breakbeat Kaos imprint and an impressive list of accolades between them that includes multiple UK Top 10 singles, a Mobo award and the support of the scene’s most influential players Zane Lowe, Fabio & Grooverider, Mistajam and more. The most distinctive voice in dance music and a number 1 selling artist in her own right, Kirsty Hawkshaw completes this dream collaboration.
‘Back In Time’ hooks you in with the haunting vocals of Kirsty Hawkshaw swirling above searing synths and atmospheric strings before dropping into organic grooves and a delectably warm bass.
On the remix tip, Swedish star John Dahlbäck provides a four to the floor electro workout, dubstep’s rising star Cookie Monsta throws in a big, bass heavy re-rub whilst Toolroom’s new wonder kid CaPa and Germany’s deep house duo Kruse & Nürnberg complete a versatile package.
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Here are some photos from the video shoot and from the making of the track when I was in the studio with DJ Fresh and Adam F.
I'm hearing voices in the wind
Adam F tests out the breakdown
The Gentleman and the beautiful Lii
All eyes are Allies
Lii mucking about on set
One sung over (The blessing way)
01 Feb 2011 2 Comments
Rowan by the felt dolls by thefeltdolls
I wasn’t too fond on the idea of a baby shower to celebrate pending birth of my son Jonny Fox, but this January I had a longing to see old and new friends. With the long winter months, and being slightly cooped up and pregnant due to all the cold weather. It’s been ages since i’ve had a moment to have a quality moment with some of the people I have had many amazing adventures in life with, so when my friend Liz mentioned “why don’t have you a blessing way instead’? I was intrigued, then when she explained exactly what it was and how it could be adapted to suit the individual I thought “GREAT lets get tribal’!.
A blessing way is a non materialistic offer of support to the Mother and her baby to get through the birth with support and the coming months following. Blessing way is translated from Navajo means ‘one sung over’ or ‘for good hope’. It’s a showing of positive intent towards the Mother and those who are invited. If the Mother is religious she can adapt it to her belief system. I am not religious but would like to think I’m spiritually curious and open. It’s a warm gathering of friends and a little ceremony.
Liz suggested a belly painting, so I contacted a friend Wendy who is an amazing body painter. Wendy then introduced me to Heather who was able to make the day. I think it’s important to allow an artist to tune into their own creativity and Heather came up with the idea of two fishes, on a lotus pond.
For the blessing way it’s essential to only invite people who you feel comfortable with, this is a wise move as it’s a very sensitive situation to be in, especially when the guide passes around the pestle and mortar to grind up the corn (in our case we used porridge oats because I didn’t have any cornmeal and upon attempting to grind up some popcorn, I almost deafened myself and nearly broke the vitamix), then I nearly burned the kitchen down attempting to pop the remains which didn’t work. Anyway each person introduces themselves and sais a little bit about the Mother and how they met. I have to admit I couldn’t hold a few tears back when some of my friends spoke, it was very touching – how precious our female friends are!. What really got me going was when my friend Becks little boy Jude who is the same age as my son Ike, spoke about how he met Ike.
Mark and Becks are my neighbours from when I lived in that end of town, and they posted a letter one day when they moved in inviting us over to say hi, It reminded me of the 70′s when people were more open in general, and kids used to play on the streets. We became great friends and they very kindly let us to use their house for the blessing way as it was closer to the Station for London friends, and also they have a lovely spacious kitchen where we held the ceremony. I invited some people who I’ve only met once, but for some reason when I met them it was kindred, and they are Mothers, and even though we don’t live in a physical tribe there is some kind of spiritual tribey connection we have. I did invite a few of my brothers too, and was really touched by a card that my friend Chris painted with a message on the back. It sounds weird but I did have a weird dream a while back where I gave birth to a baby wolf and his picture was of a wolf ( ok ok I know some of you are thinking Rosemary’s baby etc) but it was quite a powerful dream in some way and when Chris contributed the card and a fossilised shark tooth to offer as an amulet, I thought ‘Now this is the kind of baby shower I had in mind and a fossilised shark tooth beats a polyester baby grow!
Some of my male friends felt a bit uncomfortable thinking it was an all girls event, but I thought it would be nice for Tim to have some blokes there too.
A BEAD, A CANDLE AND A BOX OF SUPPORTIVE MESSAGES
Liz mentioned to put in the invite to ask everybody to bring a bead and a candle. The bead is to make a necklace for the Mother to wear and the candle to be lit on the day of the birth. There were a beautiful selection of beads brought to the celebration, and a necklace was made which I’m going to have close to me at the birth and hopefully wear if i’m allowed 
THE LACEY FLOWERY STRING CONNECTOR.
This can be a rope, a string, or in our case I long flowery piece of lace which Liz tied around everybody’s wrist. Jude tried to include the cat but we had to draw the line there as it was quite a tangle. Once everybody is connected, Liz then cut the thread up into little wrist bands for everybody to wear until the day of the birth. I have to admit I was wondering if everybody would be able to keep it on till then, but I’ve seen them still on friends.
THE BOX OF MESSAGES
During the ceremony people were asked to write on a bit of paper something nice towards the Mother and family. I have kept this box without reading the messages yet, I thought it would be nice to read them on the day of the birth and save some of the energy of the Blessing way to give some added strength on the 9th.
I would like to thank from the heart all of you who came that day, I’d like to say a huge thanks to Daiva for her gorgeous beetroot salad which we ate all weekend which she managed to bring from London on the tube! To http://twitter.com/#!/kocicenka, and Heather for sending me the photos to use in this blog, and for those who couldn’t make it or would like to be part of this, please show some support to the following charity.
http://womensrefugeecommission.org/blog/1089-women-helping-women-in-haiti
thankyou Liz for a very special day, I love you Kxxxx
Find me in Second Life.
29 Dec 2010 Leave a Comment
It’s Winter time and the time of year I like to check in on the virtual world. I have just finished updating a new ‘Kinetica’ mini installation relating to the Felt Dolls new release ‘Listen to the Hush’ which is now available on CD and instant download through our new website Do come and visit us if you have an avatar.
listen to the hush by the felt dolls
09 Dec 2010 3 Comments
Hurray the new felt dolls album is now finished. Music for the winter season. This is not specifically a Christmas album but is a perfect gift for friends and family to listen to together on those cold wintery evenings. Rebecca and I have lovingly put this together over the last 6 months, and hope that you enjoy it. The songs are all written exclusively. We used harp and metallophone as our main instruments and lots of bells and jingly sparkley sounds. There are 6 songs on this album, with 6 instrumentals. We put instrumentals on because our children like to sing over the backing tracks and thought it might encourage learning and memory skills for children.
For now the album is available to buy on CD with artwork on my website http://www.kirstyhawkshaw.co.uk. Please do state if you would like us to sign a copy for you. We hope to have our new website http://www.thefeltdolls.com website completed by the end of the week. This album is set to also put available for download on i-tunes shortly.
I would personally like to thank my highly talented friends: Hue Jah Fink, Robert Thomas, and Glen Nicholls who helped us to mix and master the album and de-noise, clunk, click, sssssssss our recordings 
. Thanks guys! You really came through for us. Special thanks to Hue Jah Fink for mastering the whole album and putting some extra time in. Also we would like to thank Chris and Elizabeth at alpha-duplication who managed to turn the CD printing around on short notice in time for the Christmas rush.
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and please love us on our website
please watch us on youtube
please see us on flickr
Please help us to spread the word
much love from
Beauty 2 a new compilation on Barnes and Noble
19 Oct 2010 Leave a Comment
I am very happy to announce the release of Beauty 2 – a compilation of sublime music from some of the loveliest Artists I have had the joy to meet. Including Zoe Johnston and Carolyn Lavelle.
It’s never a dull moment when Zoe and I get together.
Here she is performing ‘Swollen’ you all know this one )
This women is just amazing and I love her Carolyn Lavelle
All put together by the lovely Justin Elswick from Sleepthief
SEBA tours the States.
19 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
Hello everybody,
here is a fantastic mix from Seba whilst on tour in San Fran including track ‘The Joy’:
Kirsty Hawkshaw Store now ‘live’!
21 Jul 2010 1 Comment
Hi there,
I am very pleased to announce the launch of my new on-line store/website. I would like to thank Boz Boz Ltd for the sterling service they have provided and it’s been very nice working with them to get the store running efficiently.
I would also like to humbly state how your loyalty as customers will enable me to continue making music and maintaining a career. As so many of you are aware – ladies like myself rely heavily on our fan base to support us by paying for the music they love us making. As much as I would love to tour the world, the reality is I have to be local to support my lil family so I have had to really think about different ways of keeping it all going – so this way of doing things give me the freedom to continue being an Artist and to share my creativity and collaborations with you all. If you buy directly from my store, please know that you are supporting me ‘directly’ and enabling me to thrive.
This music you will receive are high quality downloads, except the ‘Two Trees’ e.p which is a CD and I will sign each copy ordered.
All the relevant links and information are on the site, highlighting some of the remixers involved and information about them. I will continue to update this information so please keep coming back
Thanks for reading this too and for taking the time. I really appreciate everybody who supports me, and know that everything I create either on my own, or with my collaborators, is made with true passion and love, I truly hope that it can continue.
with kindest wishes
Kirsty Hawkshaw
Kirsty Hawkshaw New Website
